i might as well move on and hope for the best for you.today was the first time i actually broke down and cried. what did i do wrong? how could i have prevented this? why was i such a annoyance about the way people are? why did i have to go so far with things?I went as far as calling you , just to hear your voice again. but you didn’t answer.maybe you didn’t see it. maybe you just didn’t want to talk. maybe you hate me . i wish i could let you know without anger building up inside me Every-time i see you that i don’t hate you. in fact all i want right now is to be with you , like the whole thing never happened. i want to fill you with all the love and appreciation you deserve. if only i knew everything happened. whats wrong with me? how can i be so stupid? i lost the best thing that could ever happened to me and the last thing i said was goodbye.why didn’t i give him that hug? why didn’t i tell him i loved him so much and that we could work this out.i pray to god that he puts you back into my life. i feel like breaking down from every picture, every thought, every love song, every smile i see. i really do feel like i cant go on. I hope one day you see this, so you know how much i miss you, i really wished you answered your phone.
I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to say. Im overall heartbroken. I just feel like you are finished with us and here i am trying to keep going. Here i am trying to figure out what to do next. I am not ready to let go. I never want to let go. I am sorry if i show you otherwise. I am just reacting to what you show and tell me. How can i show you when you dont believe me. Ive stood by your side for a year and two months. You are my longest relationship. I don’t care whether i knew you for only a week or a year before we started dating. I know i have grown to live an cherish almost everything you do. And even if i do lose you, i will wait here for you to come back no matter how long it takes. You are my everything and I love you.
